A Baby Lost Momma's Daydream

Oh my child, I wish that I
could know what happens in the sky,
could grab onto the bluebird's tail
and up to Heaven's Gate could sail,
to visit you; to see your face
to know you're happy in that place.
Oh sweet baby girl of mine,
I wish to you that I could climb.
I'd jump through wisps of clouds and rain,
to hold you close just once again.
I wish that I could see you run,
and smile and play and just have fun,
doing all the things little ones do,
things cancer and chemo stole from you.
If I could see you were okay,
I swear to you, I wouldn't stay.
Mommy promises, I'd let you go,
returning to my life on earth below.
Oh, if I could float for one quick view,
of the angels up there that surround you;
I'd thank them for giving you such care,
in that sweet other world up there.
But alas, gravity keeps me down here,
in this place where joy mixes with fear
I have no way but Faith to know,
that up to Heaven you did go.
Just know my heart for you still beats
as I journey along these mortal streets.
When you see my face and hear me sigh,
it's you, I'm picturing in the sky.
~Kristin Binder