is proving to be * so * very * heartbreaking. *
About Me
- Once A Mother
- I lost my first pregnancy in '07 to miscarriage, but held out hope & soon learned that my husband & I were expecting again. My pregnancy was picture perfect. In September 2008, after 42 weeks, I gave birth by c-section to my 1st child, a beautiful baby girl, Peyton Elizabeth, who unbeknownst to any of us had Infant Leukemia (ALL w/ MLL) the odds of which fell around 1 in 50 million. Peyton blessed us with her beautiful smile & unguarded love, never letting on just how sick she really was. For 28 days she fought with the heart of a prizefighter & we held onto the hope that she would beat the cancer & the odds. Infant Leukemia made Peyton an angel October 2, 2008 & a piece of me left with her. A year later we began trying again & learned that an infection from my c-section with Peyton had destroyed my tubes & left me infertile. After two rounds of IVF, we are pregnant with twins. I write this blog as a tribute to Peyton, and my journey through life without her. I don’t know where this story goes, or how it will end, only that loving & mothering Peyton has left me forever changed & losing her has washed a perspective over my life that I could never have anticipated.
I've had you in my prayers the last several days, knowing that the coming days would be difficult.
You and your husband and Peyton will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, especially tomorrow.
I hope that you will have moments of peace and comfort, and that you will feel Peyton close to you.
I'm just so, so sorry.
((Big Hugs))
Sending you many hugs and thinking of your baby girl. xx
You are in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))
My word verification was undoo, if only we could. I am so sorry.
Thinking of you and abiding with you while you grieve.
Know that I am thinking of you all. I thought of you all day yesterday and will continue thinking of you today. Sending hugs.
Happy birthday sweet Peyton.
Denise
I am sorry. I have you have some healing amid the pain as you remember Peyton.
Love, peace and healing to you
Thinking of you and your beautiful Peyton today and always. xx
I'm thinking of you today. Please just keep breathing, every time you feel the fear and sadness and panic, just breathe. xxx
My dear, thinking of all of you today.
Many hugs... Many, many hugs...
always be here. . prayers?it's not a problem. you have my thoughts and prayers as always. My mum love your blog, we love you:)keep on smiling