What can I really say?
No one ever imagines their family pictures will be this way.
This is my reality.
About Me
- Once A Mother
- I lost my first pregnancy in '07 to miscarriage, but held out hope & soon learned that my husband & I were expecting again. My pregnancy was picture perfect. In September 2008, after 42 weeks, I gave birth by c-section to my 1st child, a beautiful baby girl, Peyton Elizabeth, who unbeknownst to any of us had Infant Leukemia (ALL w/ MLL) the odds of which fell around 1 in 50 million. Peyton blessed us with her beautiful smile & unguarded love, never letting on just how sick she really was. For 28 days she fought with the heart of a prizefighter & we held onto the hope that she would beat the cancer & the odds. Infant Leukemia made Peyton an angel October 2, 2008 & a piece of me left with her. A year later we began trying again & learned that an infection from my c-section with Peyton had destroyed my tubes & left me infertile. After two rounds of IVF, we are pregnant with twins. I write this blog as a tribute to Peyton, and my journey through life without her. I don’t know where this story goes, or how it will end, only that loving & mothering Peyton has left me forever changed & losing her has washed a perspective over my life that I could never have anticipated.
It is such a hard reality. It's one reason I have a hard time with family pictures. You have 3 beautiful children!
xoxoxoxo
We (sadly) have a few very similar pictures....there really are no words.
xoxoxoxo
Thinking of you!
This photo is so heartbreakingly beautiful. 3 gorgeous babies.
So sweet. Families are forever.
Beautiful photo.
yeah... I know... (hugs)
So very sad, this shouldn't happen. Thinking of you and your three gorgeous and much loved children.
Your babies are beautiful. I can't believe how much baby boy looks like Peyton. I'm thinking of you mama.
~Felicia
((HUGS)) It is unfair and my heart is heavy with your sorrow.
We have the same sort of photos- a reality we never thought about.. never imagined... never wanted.
All your babies are beautiful
You have three BEAUTIFUL children! HUGS to you!
((HUGS))
thank you for sharing *hugs* x
i have some of those myself :( not a good feeling. you want all your children with you..
lots og hugs...
Heartbreaking. We have 'family photos' at the cemetery too. Yours are gorgeous bubbas all 3. Hugs to you xox
I have so many of these photos too...
Wait until your school-aged kids draw a picture of their family to hang on the wall of the classroom and your LO says to her teacher, "I can't draw my sister because I don't really know what she looks like, but I can draw her grave marker really well."
Then she does the drawing, complete with stick figures for the family and a headstone with flowers on it...it's a one-of-a-kind in the classroom.
Maybe not how it was imagined or how you wanted but beautiful just the same.
(((HUGS)))
Three beautiful children. Thinking of you.
There are no words. Hugs, peace and healing to you
Oh sweetie, I know. I have a pic just like this.
xo
So many here understand. It's a crazy reality. Peyton has two beautiful siblings. Sending love.
Heartbreaking picture...so many mothers will never understand how just the little things like photos of a child missing hurt so much.
Even today when I take a photo of our daughter Dempsey I think there should be both my children captured in the memory...It will always hurt.
Thank you for sharing your special family photo.
Sending a hug to you today.
Diana x
All 3 of your children are gorgeous... love to them all xoxo
Its a crummy reality to face i have tons of those pictures
Love to the eldest, and the two lives flanking their sister.
xoxo
I wish pictures like this didn't exist