About Me
- Once A Mother
- I lost my first pregnancy in '07 to miscarriage, but held out hope & soon learned that my husband & I were expecting again. My pregnancy was picture perfect. In September 2008, after 42 weeks, I gave birth by c-section to my 1st child, a beautiful baby girl, Peyton Elizabeth, who unbeknownst to any of us had Infant Leukemia (ALL w/ MLL) the odds of which fell around 1 in 50 million. Peyton blessed us with her beautiful smile & unguarded love, never letting on just how sick she really was. For 28 days she fought with the heart of a prizefighter & we held onto the hope that she would beat the cancer & the odds. Infant Leukemia made Peyton an angel October 2, 2008 & a piece of me left with her. A year later we began trying again & learned that an infection from my c-section with Peyton had destroyed my tubes & left me infertile. After two rounds of IVF, we are pregnant with twins. I write this blog as a tribute to Peyton, and my journey through life without her. I don’t know where this story goes, or how it will end, only that loving & mothering Peyton has left me forever changed & losing her has washed a perspective over my life that I could never have anticipated.
Hold that faith for He is faithful...some 30 odd years ago I surgically lost the ability to ever have children and I understand a little of the pain. But He remains faithful and you are a Mother.....your child is safe in the everlasting arms and there is no safer place...till we meet again.
Oh how precious! And what a beautiful scripture. Thank you for sharing! Happy WFW!
That is so sweet....it almost made me cry. Thank you so much for sharing!
-Maddie
I love that picture of you and Peyton. You are just beaming with pride and love for your daughter. There is nothing as awesome as being able to look into the eyes of your child.
Thanks so much for joining us this WFW!!
Your daughter is just beautiful. I can't imagine how much you long to hold her again.
Loved your scripture. What a precious promise to cling to. God love is there with you.
Praying for His comfort to carry you until she is in your arms again♥
Gorgeous. Just gorgeous.
Your faithfulness is absolutely beautiful. I love your photos. Thank you for sharing. You are forever on my heart.
You are and always will be a mother. God bless!
So very precious.
A precious picture and verse, Dear ~ Praying for you ~
Precious. Your love for Peyton is amazing.